Great link: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/
THIS IS HOW
(Response to country song, How does someone get so lonely)
by Rebecca J Burns ©
How does someone get so lonely?
How does someone get so sad?
How does someone get so lonely
that thoughts of dying make them glad
Because getting up each morning
is getting harder day by day
Facing demons and loneliness
and a pain that won’t go away
Don’t waste another day of light,
Give up on this lonely plight
I don’t want to wake another God damn day,
With nothing left to fight
Deep inside I want to live,
But I’ve nothing, nothing left to give
Let me close my eyes and fade away,
Not face another lonely, lonely day like today
You asked me, how does someone get so lonely?
How does someone get so sad?
It happens moment by moment
and day by day inside
When a soul has lost its way
and you just don’t care to be that pretty gal
Must I, struggle though tomorrow,
So you won’t feel bad today
It’s just another lonely, lonely, lonely, lonely day
like today
With inner demons that no one sees,
Fears that bring him too his knees
No one to talk to and no one who cares
That’s how you get that lonely,
When thoughts of dying make you glad
That’s how you make that awful choice,
To not live out another day without a voice
You feel that dying will bring you peace
or at least a long, long quiet sleep
Take some pills for peace of mind,
Jump off a bridge just in time
All your troubles will go away,
you won’t suffer through another day
But when we cry out for another chance,
Someone please hear our cries.
We don’t ask for sympathy
Just an ear to let me cry sometime
and another chance is all to show you how I feel
For I don’t want to be this lonely,
I don’t want to feel so sad
I don’t want to have these thoughts of dying make me glad
[…] This is How. Poem by RJ Burn. https://thelaststraw.wordpress.com/2007/07/16/this-is-how-poem-about-suicidal-feelings-feeling-alone/ […]
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Hello Cece,
Thank you for the feedback.
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This poem is very very true. It is very well worded as to how you get to feeling. I don’t promote suicide yet I know the feeling and the urge. Thank you for sharing this lovely writing.
Cece
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Hello Valery,
Thank you for writing. Someone who has never felt how you have could even begin to understand your pain. I am glad that you have your BF and that he makes you happy. I pray that you take time to feel good inside for yourself, no matter what is going on outside when you like who you are inside it can get you through so much. My favorite person was my grandma too. I was crushed when she died but so many years later I still feel her with me. I don’t know what your daily life is like but I encourage you to make your self care important, more important than anything else. If you don’t find ways to heal the pain in you now it will drag you down as an adult, trust me.
Always seek support from others becuase more people than you know suffer with depression and wanting to die, open up when you feel safe to do so. You are so young yet probably have more wisdom in you than many. I encourage you to find what makes you happy, a passion or a dream and go after it. You are more than how you feel today. You were put here for a reason and I am glad that we got to meet. I hope to hear from you again, big hug to you and be well.
Love & Peace,
Rebecca
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I cann totally relate to this poem in so many ways. I mean all the friends I thought were friends just walked all over me. Every one I knew just disappeared I become alonne. All the time, I did things by myself just everything. I got so use to it that I just didn’t care anymore I started to abuse my body, I wud cut like crazy annd thenn take pills to get high and just make my problem disappear until reality hits me again. My mom doesnnt tseem to care, the onne person who understood me was my granndma. But after mothers day she passed away. I have no one annd my sister tells me to go die somewhere. I’m in 11th grade annd you would thinnk I have the friends, no I choose not to annymore. I hide from the world. The only person that makes me happy is my bf. He’s all that matters to me. This poem just hit me. In a good way of course.
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Dear Lyn,
My heart breaks for you, find someone, even if it is just me to write to, it will help, talking is the best thing. My son went through this too, talking all the time with me helped him not feel so alone. The best thing for you might be finding something online, I found one here: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ Just google feeling suicidal and tons of sights will come up, you will find one that you can relate to. People that do not even know you really care, I care.
Write back and I promise, others here will support you for we have and some still feel the way that you do know.
You are in my thoughts and prayers today Lyn. You are loved.
Love & Peace,
Rebecca
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i feel this way right now… idk wat to do.. no1 listens. my friends arent real friends. my “family” jus makes it worse.
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Stay strong. I have felt like that too. Living is worth it.
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April,
You broke my heart. The hell with what she said. It isn’t true. Find others to support you. You are so crying for help. My son almost died from a suicide attempt just a few months ago. he just didin’t want to be in pain anymore as I am sure you feel.
There are so many great places online, just type in suicidal support blogs and find that that is supportive. No one should take what you are saying lightly. Your mom just doesn’t get it or can’t deal with it.
I don’t know how old you are but pray that you can find someone to talk to, a school member, teacher, friend, other family member.
I found a site for you, just click and call, I had to when I was younger and it just really makes all the difference to talk to someone who cares and gets it. Cut and paste the following link.
http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/?gclid=CIfep8eOt5YCFQhdswodE2PxLQ
You are in my prayers tonight. Write again if you need to.
Love & Peace,
Rebecca xoxo
It matters that you are here, it really does and someday you will see that.
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I started reading this poem and ended up in tears….I felt this way for a while but when my mom finally found out about it she didnt care she told me to just kill myselsf it would be one less mouth for her too feed…
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Sergio,
Thank you for commenting. It is sad how we shut down and numb out to the pain we are often in. I really do wish you all the best.
To all of the posts above, you are not alone, many feel the way that you do. Please feel free to share your feelings and poetry here if you like. When we find out that there are others that feel like we do in some odd way if does help more than anything else.
Love & Peace,
Rebecca
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While I was reading the poem I felt like if it was me who wrote it. I have been feeling like this for such a long time that I think I have already got used to it. I don’t know if it is better or not because it hurts less but maybe I feel nothing too, it is a secondary effect. Good luck for us!
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I have gone through and still are feeling the same way
after i cried my eyes out my family figure that somthing was wrong with me and i got the some help, i am doing alot better and i working on learning to love my self
I HOPE ALL YOU GUYS THAT FEEL THIS WAY GET THE HELP YOU NEED:]
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This poem makes me sad. But not in a bad way. It makes me feel like I need to help those peolpe that feel that way. This is for anyone that feels that way, I’m giving you my email. if you need to talk. crazyerika13_@yahoo.com
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