I received a direct email and wanted to share it here. I need your support to help this woman too. I will call her Frightened for that is what I feel when I hear her story.
in my soul and spirit i desire to be free i would like to fly my wings again and celebrate life and start to love myself again i am praying for my healing i ask god to take the pain away and help me love myself again over the years he has really destroyed me inside and out all of of the names that he calls me still play in my head all of the name especially at night time it is very hard for me for me to sleep some time i wake up sweating at night because i sleep in fear at might i am a very light sleeper at night time when he wakes up at night i live in fear i only sleep when he is not a home or when he goes out of town i am tried of my live been in fears i sleep with the light on and all of the doors and window unlock so i can leave if i have to the abuse have cause me to loose weight also my hair fall out from stress sometime i have pain in my stomach feel like i have a ulcer from lots of stress my children always make me feel like i am stupid they treat me like there father do like i am a retarded person with no human respect it really does hurt me a lot i do not feel like there Mother anymore they treat me like a slave with no respect sometime i hate them because i do not deserve to be treated this way no one does i have had dogs that get better treatment then me and more love than me from there owners and that really breaks my spirit a lot sometime i have to look at my ID just to remind me who i am i am never call by my name any more my children abuse me verbally also i really need help to leave this situation asap… leaving in fear of death daily
It was heartbreaking to read your emails. I am so sorry for the situation that you are in. You do not deserve it. I wish that I could take you away from it all. Is there any way for you to get out on your own? It sounds like your children would be all right. You need to put the full focus on you. Your anxiety is so high I don’t know how you function through all of this.
You don’t deserve any of this, you deserve, you deserve to be treated with self respect and kindness. You are not ever going to get it from this man. You need to find a way to escape this life, it is killing you, I can hear the desperation in your emails. I again encourage you to visit my site at http://www.the-laststraw.com a community that will be there to support you.
Try to find even the littlest moments to breathe, that sounds crazy as I can remember so clearly the days that you are trying to survive. I remember not being able to sleep and being jolted into a nightmare of his drunken rages.
I wish that there was more that I could do for you Sharon, you are the only one that can make the decision to leave, make a plan, get you. Let me know what I can do for you.