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Moments that make us look back are often so spur of the moment.  My boyfriend and I picked up my 25 year old son to take him to brunch today,  I am happy that my son that could be hanging with his friends, chooses to hang with us often, I also love that my boyfriend is one of his best friends. This man has been more of a role model and father to my son this is father ever was.

We are driving back after brunch when my son randomly says, it is the 20 year anniversary of my father’s death soon.  I could sense from how he said it so matter of factually like, it might rain later, that he basically feels nothing but a person he should love and care about, died.  This made me so sad yet grateful this man left his life while my son was so young.  Granted the damage of who his father was remained, but I can only imagine the terror he would have brought on my son as he got older.  I feared he would be a teenager being forced to stay the night with an abusive drunk, my son had enough scars having he man in life for just 6 years. I am certain God took the man almost 20 years ago to save my son and I from living the rest of our lives in fear of him.

My son now has a 3 year old son, something he has always wanted.  Funny, he is about to divorce but he had always said, I want a son never a wife.  He so wanted to be the father he never had.  Last week he told me he son said, “daddy, we will be best friends forever.”  My son glowed, as a mother I deeply wish he had this from his own father.

Back today, the man that adores him, my boyfriend of 8 years, took him out to buy him a bike, granted my son is 25, but having a man you respect just take out to get you something you really want, it is just so bonding as a mother to watch.  If anything, the past that we both had has made us both greatly appreciate the good people in our life, my boyfriend being one of the best ones.  My son introduces us to his friends as his mother and stepfather, years ago is was my mom’s boyfriend, this just melted my guys heart.  Today they are unable to find the right bike so they come back home and I see my boyfriend taking his favorite bike out to the truck to send it home with my son, my son liked the bike and since they were not able to find one today, he gave him his.   Just the look of joy on my son’s face made it all worth it.  Knowing someone cares about you enough to give up something they enjoy to see you happy.

There is no point to this writing today except that I knew I wanted to share it with all of you.  There is hope of a better life, for years I have lived waiting for the shoe to drop, but it hasn’t.  My life has been calm and happy, extra happy in the last 8 years having a great man in it and my son so happy.  I need to accept that my life is good and get rid of that feeling that it won’t last.  This keeps me grateful every day for what I have, funny how a bad past can do that for you.  May you find your grateful.

Love & Peace,
Rebecca

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We have all heard the wonderful saying, “bloom where you’re planted,” by Mary Engelbreit. If you haven’t, well you must be under a really large heap of dirt in that garden of yours. To those of you who visit this blog often, by now you know that I absolutely adore the book titled, “Simple Abundance,” by Sarah Ban Breathnach. I’ve read it around 6-7 times by now, but every now and then, when I can’t seem to find my way in the world or I don’t seem to have a moment to myself, I somehow find myself yearning to read a page from this book and no matter what page I end up on it reminds me to live my life and no one else’s.

Today, I came across an entry for June 21st titled; you guessed it, “bloom where you’re planted.” I have heard this thought provoking saying repeatedly throughout my life and each time I read it I feel as if I am reading it for the first time, with fresh eyes; if that make sense. Ms. Breathnach captured the meaning for me when she wrote the following as quoted:

“As I have tried and failed and tried again, I have discovered that if we are to flourish as creative beings, if we are to grow into Wholeness, we must bloom where ever we are planted. Right now, you might not have the perfect career, home, or relationship. Few of us do. Gut if you have the gift of today, you’ve got another chance to re-create … “

She continues, but I feel that the reference above sums it up for me. We are always waiting for our big ship to come in rather than learning to better sail from the helm we are at today. For certain, as I am wishing for a bigger house, best-selling novel of the thinner thighs and smaller butt, my garden grows around me without my full attention; for whatever reason I suddenly look down to find my garden full of weeds and mal-nourished flowers.

I feel that to truly bloom where you’re planted you must live in the moment, at least this feels true for me. Every now and then I come across goals I had written years ago, the things I wanted in my life were laughter, a wonderful man, great sex, someone who would love to cook for me along with what was most important to me, especially after moving past domestic violence and that is safety and security. Sometimes I take that for granted. It is in the times where I remember to bloom today instead of waiting for new soil to dig my feet into; I realize that I have everything I have always dreamed of right under my own nose.

So, as the other saying goes, stop and smell the flowers, roses or whatever pretty scent is closest to your nose. Those who come to this blog come here for a reason, for assurance that they have made a right decision, to heal knowing that are not alone and to feel heard, even if just for a moment. The reason for this post was to remind me and hopefully you too, to live your life to the fullest where you are planted today. Even if you are not exactly where you want to be right now as you may be days out of a horrible, abusive life, but you are alive and today is a new day as corny as that sounds. I have always appreciated the fact that each day really is a clean slate. So, wipe the sorrows of yesterday off and write a new story for today, one that has hope and laughter, fewer tears and more happiness. We can discuss the bad things that have happened to us for days, but it is also okay to let down our guards and enjoy the moment we are in now and bloom where you are planted. My prayer is that you can enjoy this moment to the fullest too.

How have you learned to appreciate the good times in your life now, compared to how things were? Do you journal, read, pray? When you share here you help another woman learn how to bloom where she is planted today too.

Love & Peace,
Rebecca

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Free Gratitude Journal with workbook

I love finding free resources for readers online. Check out this link for a free Gratitude Journal. I think it is more of a short report on how to keep and start a gratitude journal. If you are like me after loss and some hard knocks there can be days when you struggle to find things to list in this journal but this short guide will get you started. Keeping a journal like this is one of my goals this year so join me. If you print and start this journal I encourage you to return here and leave a comment about how it is working for you. Your words will inspire another reader.

Love & Peace,
Rebecca

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