Posts Tagged ‘the forgiveness of me’

I forgave a man who beat me
I never beat a man
I forgave a man that terrorized me
I never terrorized a man
I forgave a man who imprisoned me and robbed me of my soul
I forgave a man who took from me all I’d thought I owned
Long after I forgave this man
The only one that I thought was left to forgive
Was the woman sitting beneath my skin
The one that lost her soul
The woman who never beat a man
The woman who never terrorized another
The woman who never stole a thing
The woman who never robbed a man
She was much harder to forgive by far
Than the man who imprisoned her in his clutch
For it was she that had allowed somehow
This man to take so much
The day she finally forgave herself
That was true forgiveness she was told
That forgiveness of herself was worth more to her than Gold…

My gift to you …

As much as you don’t want to hear the F word, it is the first thing you must do to move on, Forgive the worst one of all … YOU!. I don’t mean to say you are the worst one but I felt that I was to blame for all of it. After all I stayed when he passed out drunk. I stayed after the first time he hit me. I stayed when he tried to kill me. But my life changed when I finally began to forgive myself. It doesn’t happen in a day, all better, I have forgiven myself. It has taken years but since the first glimmer of my own forgiveness I have begun to heal. Honestly, I forgave my abuser in my mind, not to his face, long before I even forgave myself.

P.S. I forgave myself long ago and have posted this poem to help another learn to forgive.

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